January 12

ACCEPTANCE MONTH: DAY 12: “I knew then that this is how God loves us all and receives us all, and that there is no such thing in this universe as hell, except maybe in our own terrified minds. Because if even one broken and limited human being could experience even one such episode of absolute forgiveness and acceptance of her own self, then imagine—just imagine!—what God, in all His eternal compassion, can forgive and accept.”― Elizabeth Gilbert

This is one of my all-time favorite quotes about acceptance. Because I felt this exact same thing, so completely at varying times since beginning recovery. I have never been able to understand how Ego-filled people are around recovery. I “get it” on an intellectual level, of course, and see the results all around me since day 1.

That is probably why I have worked in the field since I had just under 2 years. To continuously encounter the denial of all the troubles we cause ourselves by allowing Ego to rule our thinking. Which then rules our behaviors. But I do not relate to that.

Once I experienced that first feeling of identification, I have been graced by never questioning it again. With each AHA moment, I have been shifted and changed. I have been willing, so far, to unquestioningly follow the steps and any healing processes that have come to me. I have trusted and allowed them, even if my brain was exploding with questions and doubts. My heart has led me on a never-ending path of healing and recovery. What a great blessing!

And to recognize how truly benefitted I am with this stuff has been easy. I am a maniac, capable of destroying everything good and fine in my life, while blaming everyone and everything except the real culprit, which is my fine, highly intelligent, well-educated, erudite, and twisted mind. Isn’t that fun?

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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