July 5

PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 5: “When you learn to close your eyes, wait and listen, silence reveals a beautiful thing: yourself.”― Maxime Lagacé

Yes! I love meditation…and I love to feel what I feel when I give myself this kind of love and time. It is always an act of love to give of my time…when I can do it unconditionally.

I have meditated since I was about 15. I fell in love with a Yogi I had the opportunity to meet in Los Angeles in the late 1960s, early 1970s. He was a Sikh and taught Kundalini yoga. It was earth shaking for this girl from a Catholic school background with a ton of trauma and abuse.

I learned to sit in meditation at that time and to chant. I really, really love to chant in kirtan. It gives a sense of energy that is intense, and I love it. I have meditated since that time, but not always in formal sittings.

A great deal of it is spent in time gardening. I have been known to clear huge pieces of land of weeds, all by hand. That is a great way to meditate for me, because I love touching dirt. Or walking miles on the beach to collect shells and rocks and seaglass and “stuff.” Whatever there is. Also great meditation. I still sit for at least 20 minutes each morning. Sometimes several times a day if there is disturbance in energy. I am being present to the voice of my soul. I don’t always know what it says, but I know it quiets Ego most of the time.

When I focus on trying to quiet the screaming purple monkeys of Ego, I sometimes cannot. Instead, I just focus on my mantra or on my breathing. I also do a great deal of breathwork because it is a wonderful tool. I can energize myself or calm myself in a few minutes if I am focused. Many of the years of my drug and alcohol addiction were still spent in working to meditate. It had less efficacy in that time, but it did slow me down when I was too racy.

We all have that inner voice, but so few are able to learn to sit still and listen. It is such a wonderful tool to be patient and wait for our answers. They will come, in the fullness of time. But there is no schedule to predict or comply with. Just wait…and breathe…and do nothing. All good stuff!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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