April 11

HONESTY MONTH: DAY 11: “We have to be honest about what we want and take risks rather than lie to ourselves and make excuses to stay in our comfort zone.”― Roy Bennett

We are talking here about Step 4, so I want to stay in the range of honesty within that. I don’t follow the popular party line about visualizing what we want to create in our lives and focusing on goals, per se. I do believe that if my intention here is to get rid of the things that stand between me and a Universal Power, which is what I believe the steps are designed to accomplish, then honesty with self about this being my intention is imperative.

I have prayed on every occasion for the truth to be revealed to me, even if it didn’t make me happy. Of course, most of the time, it doesn’t. Ego wants to be a shining star at all times, always right and always on top of spiritual matters. Now that I write it out like that, it is terribly ridiculous isn’t it? I know! But I really want to be always right and always in supreme, if not superior, spiritual condition. Yikes!

So I have to be willing to uncover some deeper truth about who I really am in this world and what I am really up to. Most of the time, I can laugh at Ego and have fun with the delusions under which I operate. I have a great sponsor for this. She does not sugarcoat or baby me with half truth or assurances that I am doing “just fine.” She lets me know what she sees and how she sees it. I have asked for her to do that, and she is earning her keep, let me tell you!

And stepping outside of my comfort zone means that I get to do things that are new and different…which is ALL life is about…if you are doing the same things over and over, you are in a rut and that is not how life works best. It is a zone that is dead and kind of like “Groundhog Day.” Every day, life is new and vital and asks us to accommodate and move into an unusual and new state.

Those of us who can do this are going to thrive. And those who resist life will not. So simple. And truth will reveal to us where we are still resistant and demanding life adjust to our rules and whims. Oh! This is how it works. And it works so beautifully. I love learning about life and my part and how the steps help me adjust my sails when I am headed into another Kelly-created storm. Yay!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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