December 31

LOVE MONTH: DAY 31: “There is only one page left to write on. I will fill it with words of only one syllable. I love. I have loved. I will love.”― Dodie Smith

If today were the last day and there were only one syllable words to write on this last page, that is a great way to do it.

I am not done today, as far as I know. I am planning to live every minute of it with love. This is the only challenge I will ever face. And the only one I will step into. Ego (Screaming Purple Monkeys-SPM) gives me a whole list of challenges…run for President (don’t laugh, it could happen…lol), own the world, have an affair with a beautiful, but younger man…tons of crazy shit!

So, while this may keep me entertained for a minute, none of these things are the source of my great happiness and joy at being alive and God’s favorite kid. What IS included in that source is to Love everyone I meet…all the same…all the time. And without expectation or rules or old ideas telling me what that means.

BUT, and this is the kicker of the whole thing…I have to love Kelly…unconditionally, all the time, no matter what! And, I don’t know about you, but I wake up with a crazy list of why that is just not possible. I am not young enough, pretty enough, rich enough, thin enough, smart enough…well, maybe that one…my memory is slipping…blah, blah, blah.

So, the first thing I have to do is list 30 or more things for which I am grateful and thankful. OK! That helps. Then I meditate for 20-30 minutes. Shuts up you-know-who! No screaming purple monkeys while I meditate…total peace! I love that! And I get it. And I set my intention for the day. To BE PRESENT to all of it…the opportunities to love are everywhere! And most of them are the most unlovable assholes I can find. Universal Power never lets up on my challenges.

And there we are! Open and ready for the changes and shifts of life…ALL DAY!!! Yikes! I love it! There is nothing but adventure in my world, no matter what the monkeys think. They get bored unless Ego is being constantly entertained. But I don’t need (or want) that most of the time.

So, my book isn’t over yet. There is THIS page today. I will LOVE and see what else may come. When the SPM show up, I will quiet them with love and move on. Moving on…what a great gift!!!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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