HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 30: “Such excessive preoccupation with his faults is not a truly spiritual activity but, on the contrary, a highly egoistic one. The recognition of his own faults should make a man humbler, when it is beneficial, not prouder, which the thought that he ought to have been above these faults makes him.” ― Paul Brunton
I have listened to addicts who love to brag about their misdeeds to the extent that their whole story is one long escapade after another. While this is entertaining, what we don’t get to know is why they ever made it into recovery. There is no sense of how they felt about themselves and their drinking and drugging.
That is not my story. Yes, I can entertain and amuse a crowd. I can be funny and tell a good yarn. But, we are here because our asses were on fire and we were devastating our lives with our horrible ideas about who we were and how we were living. We were filled with anger, resentment, shame and remorse. None of that is funny. None of that is entertaining. None of that is amusing. We need to accurately balance what was REALLY going on with our part in it.
We are not victims of anything. We can certainly understand the parallels with Diabetes or Cancer and Addiction. If we smoke and develop cancer, we cannot feel sorry for ourselves, we have to get on track with eliminating all causal behaviors that allow us to recover.
The same for diabetes. We are not victims of something that just jumps out and grabs us. We are doing things that are causing the condition. We stop and the condition(s) get better.
The same for heart disease, stress conditions, and all other illnesses. They have causal components that we are responsible for. And it is our job to eliminate behaviors, beliefs and ways of being in the world that contribute to the problem.
Being proud of our failings is never going to help us become who we are here to be. Knowing that we are gifted with these challenges to overcome, as part of our spiritual development, is the key. Our societal woes are increasing. We live in a culture that wants to have a magic pill for every ill, rather than doing what we should have been doing all along.
So, it is going to take what it takes for most of us to become willing to do what is right, in every aspect of our lives. This IS the journey we came to have; not the sideline events outlining the rest of it. What we believe about this shows the world who we are, not the labels we try to cover it up with.