June 20

HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 20: “That’s an animal fable about humility. If you survive your mistake, you must learn from it. Accept that you’re fragile, vulnerable, and sometimes stupid. Realize that you’re not immortal and you’ve got to take care of yourself. And then laugh it off and fly away.” ― Marc Maron

This is the best quote I found this year. I really, really love it. I am totally fragile, vulnerable and sometimes really, really stupid.

And I need (desperately!) to take care of myself. I have been sitting in a situation of fascinating complexity for me. One that is not new. And having a great laugh at myself for the craziness I am capable of creating in my heart and mind. How I will neglect myself and abandon ME in the most insane ways when I fall into a trap that is old and quite familiar. Monkey and banana kind of shit. Crazy! And I love this quote. Because I must laugh and fly away. YAY!!!

The only answer I need. Laugh it off and fly away. Wow! And a friend and I were speaking recently about surviving mistakes. Sometimes survival is all we get. We are lame and feel crippled and broken by some of the things that we allow into our lives. BUT, they always come bearing gifts to be opened. And we DO survive, because there is breath in our lungs and our minds have been broken open by the experience to the point where we are capable of making better choices and becoming the wiser women we came here to be. I LOVE THAT!!! And I love my human-ness, my fragility, my vulnerability, and of course, my stupidity. Wow! Who knew I could embrace those things and love them?

And I do, just like my aging process is teaching me to love my wrinkled and well-worn body (most of the time!) I suppose I will always be exposed to tricksters and those who play games I do not play well. I have NO GAME. I keep recognizing this, but others have plenty. And I am drawn to the most interesting things and lessons and experiences, because there is something I must know. I see my insecurities and vulnerabilities within my strengths every time.

I really want them to heal over, leaving deep scar tissue that cannot be penetrated, but that is not the path I am here to walk. And I feel foolish and tricked and exposed for my weakness. Isn’t that wonderful? Today, it is. Thank you, amazing and loving Universe, for this experience (again!) I cannot be grateful for the learning without being grateful for the teacher and the lesson. Ugh! Humility indeed! I am not always sitting in the space where it feels okay to be foolish. So glad for trickster medicine…right-sizes me every time!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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