June 21

HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 21: “If arrogance is a lock, then humility is the key” ― Thomas Gale

In the BB, one of the stories I read first was “Keys to the Kingdom.” The reason this one (and one other) both had names I liked. I love the idea of possessing the key(s) to whatever prison my mind has created. And the creation of the prison is what I have spent a great deal of my time working through.

It is my beliefs about freedom that kept me from having it. My beliefs about not being worthy that made it true. My beliefs about not getting my fair share that created lack and poverty in my life. My beliefs about who you were and how much greater you were than me that made me insecure and uncertain of myself.

Every problem I ever had came from ME. Every problem centered in the thinking that kept me in active addiction, because I could not cope with reality without drugs and alcohol. Every time I encountered the truth about life, I had to escape, because I was so much more comfortable with living in my special way of seeing things. As long as I stay in that place, you are the bad guy and I am the misunderstood princess. This is a lifestyle for so many of us.

And now, I am happy with the idea(s) that I am just like you and you and you. We all have skills and value and a path. I no longer begrudge you yours, because I am too busy discovering and enjoying mine. And the truth deepens for me every day. It is my balance beam. The only time I get balled up is when I try to withdraw and deny it.

This is what allows me to have full access to myself, my character defects, and my willingness to give them all to that Power, to use as the Power sees fit. Some of them will remain with me until I die, I am sure.

It is not my business to “work” on them. It is my business to become ready for them to be removed. It is my business not to let the characters run the show, whether they be defects or assets. It is my business to give it all the that Power and get on with what is in front of me today.

There is only so much I need to do today. It is all pretty simple. That is what humility is all about. I am no greater or lesser than you or you or you. I am adequate, I am secure in the knowledge that the Power is not done with me yet, so I must have something to do today. I set about what is in front of me and work really hard to accept what comes if my plans go south. Hahaha!

Today is a good day. I have not had to fight for anything all day. Just keep open and love who and what is in front of me and do my best not to make trouble. It ain’t much, but for me, it is way more than enough! I am tremendously grateful for this simple way of living…it is beautiful!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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