January 2

ACCEPTANCE MONTH: DAY 2: “Clearly, all fear has an element of resistance and a leaning away from the moment. Its dynamic is not unlike that of strong desire except that fear leans backward into the last safe moment while desire leans forward toward the next possibility of satisfaction. Each lacks presence.” ― Stephen Levine

Full acceptance of ALL of life means that I am perfectly present in this moment, on this day, in this hour. Right now! And not waiting for something to come, nor wishing something had not gone past.

Step 1 teaches us about our Powerlessness over drugs, alcohol, food, sex, gambling, whatever the addiction.

When we recognize that we are Powerless…period, we are ready to embrace this moment just the way it IS. A very challenging idea for those of us who think we are going to “Seize the day” and other such concepts.

While we may be able to DO things that propel our lives in any given direction, we are still Powerless to make it all come out according to our plans. We may get an education, but we cannot determine what that will mean, long-term.

We make choices, but we cannot control the outcome of those choices. Like we hear all the time in meetings: “It is okay to make plans, but the outcomes are not in our hands.” And we resist so much of life because it is new or different or unusual or unplanned.

Well, hello! Life is supposed to be random, unscheduled, and happen in ways that we cannot ever predict or foresee. If those fortune tellers and astrologists could truly predict the future, they would be the most powerful seers in the Universe. They cannot. They may talk about certain aspects of the planetary movement we know is coming, but they never have predicted accurately an earthquake, or a hurricane. We just don’t know some things about what is going to happen. That is the point.

We must learn to sit with what IS and work to accept it; all of it; or we will continue to be unhappy, resentful and miserable. That was my story coming into this thing.

I was bitter, angry, resentful and miserable. Stuck in the hamster wheel of expectation and regret. Hating everybody and everything. I could not accept that it was all the way it was supposed to be, because I always thought I knew better. Yikes!

Today I am grateful that I get to sit in Step 1 every day and remember that I am Powerless, Period! I love that! Then I can do what is right in front of me and leave all results up to the Universal Power that has come to guide me into another day. I just say thank you, because it is all so damn good I can’t believe I get to have it all. What a lovely life this is.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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