July 16

PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 16: “Going through Life with Faith – trusting the process – and Patience is an art; and once you learn that art, you discover that it is actually a blessing!”― AVIS Viswanathan

I have many areas of patience in which to act. There are some in which I have become quite adept and others where a GREAT deal of work is yet to be done.

I am grateful for every opportunity to do so. It is such a great experience to work through these road blocks in a spiritual life. At least I think so.

My therapist asked me today how I was practicing patience. I told her I was no longer stabbing people in the face. And we laughed.

The truth is that I have very little patience with others. I am so motivated in so many ways, but these , too are defenses I learned in times of trauma. To be superior, to work harder, to know more, blah, blah, blah. And I want to tear down these walls because they trap only me.

So now I made the mistake of talking about doing these and that this is Patience month. Ugh! She has a whole other set of things for me to work through…shit! Sometimes I set myself up too well. But it is good because I need to be challenged by someone I know sees through my shit.

And I love and respect when someone can see me the way she does. This is why I keep stretching myself to grow further and further. The road is long and I am not done yet. Not by a long shot. Some things will be left for the next time around, but I want to heal as much as I can and the people are placed along my journey just for that purpose. What a great thing to be God’s favorite kid!