June 8

HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 8: “So why am I so reluctant to surrender to God? Why so slow to yield? Perhaps it is because I am not only in enemy-occupied territory, but because I am enemy-occupied territory.”― Jean-Michel Hansen

I laughed so hard when I read this quote! Damn…isn’t this the truth? There is no one in the world who is a greater threat to my peace, joy, and love than me when I am living in Ego.

I love a good quote that is a surprise…this is one I found for this month. And it is SO true. I am the only one who can destroy myself in so many, many ways. Living in Ego is the fastest method I know to destroy everything good and fine in my life and then blame it on you!

And the stories we tell ourselves about why we don’t let go of this monster. Insane stuff. Every step of the way. And being “entirely ready to have God remove all our defects…” is a tremendous act of surrender. We will have very little left when that happens.

Thank goodness we let go of things a tiny bit at a time. I really believed that when I did 6 and 7 I would be vacuumed clean on the inside, but that is not what happened. Something big got removed, but it was not even on my list…! The truth is that I do not know what stands directly in the way of my relationship with God. That is not my business. Oh!

So…I am willing, every day, to be humbled in this process. Most of the time, I find that I get Entirely ready by having my Ego run over by a steam roller. That is how it feels…smash! And I love that because I feel better at right-sized. And there is less opportunity for that enemy to occupy my mind here.