FAITH MONTH: DAY 19: “Faith doesn’t mean that you never doubt. It only means that you never act upon your doubts.”― Orson Scott Card
I am not sure I can have the luxury of the word “never”. It seems too absolute for me. Part of my pathology is to use extreme words like “always”, “never”, and so on.
And I have learned to not be so dramatic (serious) with myself. Unnecessary and really very immature. But I like this quote because we all have doubts, Ego never rests. I had a therapist I saw for a few months before she moved away from the place where we lived at the time. I did not get much from her, except a story I won’t go into today, but it was a great teaching. The other thing I got from her was the idea that I did not have to be so impulsive with my responses to life.
That was huge for me. I would immediately say and do things that were not always in-line with what was best for me. (Spitting on people is a great example!) And I have learned that one of the things to NOT react so quickly to were my doubts or fears.
What happens most often is that I am wrong in how I see things. What? Wrong? Me??? Yeah, a lot. Because Ego has a twisted view of life. Haven’t we talked about this before? Well, yes we have. And it is no good to see life through the lens of Ego. It is warped, twisted, tweeked, wrong…just wrong.
So it is best to wait. What that therapist told me, more than once, was to pause (ever read THAT ONE in the BB? Yeah, it is there, too!) and wait before responding to anything. Ugh! She even told me that I could say, “Let me get back to you on that.” And once in a while, I use that line.
A good thing when I do and not so good when I just react to what is going on or what I think is going on. Totally different situations, in my experience. Life is good when I just allow it to be.