October 13

DISCIPLINE MONTH: DAY 13: “Sometimes, we fail at a challenge. That can be a disappointment, but it can also be the thing that helps us learn how to rise above and meet that challenge on the next go round. Failure can build discipline and strength and wisdom. We get to choose to keep pressing in and charging forward to meet the challenge.”― Josh Hatcher

I failed miserably in life for 31 years. Miserably. And then I got here to you folks. To recovery, to the first place where I had that miraculous moment of…”Wow! I felt like that! I believed that too…wow!”

And for the first time I understood that those 31 years of failure were something else…the admission price to recovery. To the best possible life I could ever have imagined.

The difference I found here was that, for the first time EVER, I had the rule book I had always wished for. The guide for how to do life. It gave me step-by-step directions. All I have to do is live every day and apply these principles in my life, which means DOING them every day, not thinking about them, or remembering when I did them before, or reading about them, or talking about them, but doing them. I have only met 2 other people in 34 years who get this. Truly get this. And do this, truly DO this.

And they get to live like I do. Free of the terrific fear and the drama and the crazy, especially going on in the world when disruption and change abound…which is ALL the time.

Truly, there are some things going on today that are different. But not that much. I have lived long enough to remember things being so much the same as they are today. It is funny how it wears a different hat, and we are fooled into believing it is a different situation. Not really. Ecclesiastes said that there is “nothing new under the sun.” As is paraphrased often. He actually said it a bit differently, but that is the gist. Everything is already been seen and heard and said.

Perhaps there were more gifts than I will ever know about those first 31 years. About the tremendous amount of trauma and abuse in my life. I know, for sure, that there is something out there in this Universe that sets it all in motion and knows exactly what is coming and what is going; and I have a tremendous faith in THAT. I know there is nothing to get excited or terrified about, and I just get on with the business of living. I have the instructions now. And it really isn’t that big a deal, none of it. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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