FREEDOM MONTH: DAY 9: “If only everyone could know and live with their inner craziness. Would the world be a worse place for it? No, people would be fairer and happier.” ― Paulo Coelho
We are often going to have to do a lot of work on “others” in this process. Grievances and resentments are often going to point us back to our own inner turmoil and lack of acceptance of ourselves. This is the process I have come to time after time.
I see how much you piss me off. I do this step process on it…(4-9) and find out it is really all about me…once again! I do not like this, but you are here to reflect back to me those parts of myself that I don’t want to recognize. This is how I get to heal ME…seeing how those things come to show me what I really look like in the world. Oh yeah!
I love to see my inner craziness when I can. It helps me so much to understand better. We can call it our dark side or our hidden side, but it is waiting for us to embrace it and love it so we can fully be more of ourselves in this world.
Trying to hide our dark or crazy inner selves is what makes us so miserable to begin with. We are afraid to own ourselves fully. And until we do, we are doomed to feel lousy all the time…low self-esteem is what they call it far too often. Of course! I don’t need abusive others in my life. Now I can kick my own ass over and over again. Neglect and lack of healthy attention are what I do to myself, and then I can blame YOU for that. Ugh!
We all have parts of our personality, history, and story that we would rather not show the world. When we judge ourselves this way, we are guilty of abuse that we may have learned from others. So we must unlearn and relearn these things. When I quit beating me up, I can quit beating you up. When I can quit judging myself, I can quit judging you. When I can learn to accept me unconditionally, I can love me unconditionally. And when THAT happens, I can do it for others too. See how this works.
It is all the process of discovering that I am worthy of God, as becomes possible when I find myself worthy to myself. I love this stuff!
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