PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 31: “Patience is the key to contentment.” The Prophet Muhammad
This is serious truth. When I am agitated, it is always because I am out of alignment with acceptance and patience. They go together.
Step 7 is all about my character defects, which I also relate with ego defenses. They are one and the same. If I am living in ego defenses, all of these principles are out the window. I am self-centered and demanding MY way and acting like an infant with a bad temper. That is SO unattractive to witness and to feel.
Becoming aware and awake is what Step 7 is all about. Humbly asking for this to be removed is good, as far as it goes. I must do my part, which is to pay attention to my attitudes and behaviors around these things, so I don’t pick them up and use them any longer. I know it will happen, but less and less, because I truly know they can and will be removed.
I can no longer pretend that my behaviors are okay. Even when I want to justify and explain them away, they are unacceptable to me and to others. I don’t want to be that self-centered asshole any more. She was ugly in so many ways.
I am blessed to remember this today. And I will make every effort to remain in this state of mind. The work is on me to do this. And the benefits of this work are wonderful! I am rather good at it by this time, but sometimes get very out of sorts with myself, so have to remember to be patient with Kelly as well. She is worth it!