PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 22: “Patience is where we realize that to rush something is to compromise it to its own destruction. Maturity is to realize that the most effective way to stop the destruction is by beginning to develop patience. And the first place that we need to do that is with ourselves.”― Craig D. Lounsbrough
This quote reminds me that my lifetime…the one I am in right NOW, is the length of time in which I am here to recover and heal from the things that occur in this lifetime. I don’t know about past lives or any of that, it is interesting, but there is more than enough in this one to require this many years of healing, and then some!
So I am here, with the exact amount of time I need, to recover from all of it. If there is more needed, I will be around a bit longer. If not, I will have done what I came here to do. To recover, in a spiritual fashion from Ego. I don’t feel done yet, but there is much I don’t know about all of it. When I get impatient, I remember I might be wishing my life away.
Most of us have done this. When I was 8 or 9 years old, I wanted to be 12 or 13. When I got there, I wanted to be 16. When I got there, I wanted to be 18. There was always another time where I was headed and in a hurry to get to. When I was 21, I quit wanting to get older. I hated my 22nd birthday, because I was (in my mind) done with the aging and maturing process. There is nowhere to go except old age when you are 22. Hahahaha!
And many of us are the same way. When I first came around here, I was in a hurry to get 20 years of recovery! Then I got there and, of course I wanted 25 or 30. However, I had no idea how to act with only 2 or 3 months or years of recovery. So, the process is the process and I have quit doing all of that looking forward. It has no payoff for me.
Today might be my last, so I want to be mindful of using and enjoying every moment. I have finally learned some patience with that. Yay!