HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 11: “It’s the ‘everyday’ experiences we encounter along the journey to who we wanna be that will define who we are when we get there.”― Aaron Lauritsen
Each day we are given opportunities to be humble or not. My ego has its own zip code, so I know how big that sucker is. An ongoing project for me to keep it right-sized. Not happening so far.
I know that we get so many opportunities to live into a more right-sized idea of self each day…so many times! I want to fully appreciate and avail myself of these opportunities to become less self-involved and more involved with others and being God’s kid.
I can go long stretches without interface with others. I know this is the result of much trauma in life and I tend to isolate. The story is big inside me, so I have to learn to be part of the world in ways that I am not really all that crazy about. So, I do this each day, to the best of my ability.
The work I have done most of my life is service work. I want to be of service to others. I really do. But it can come with uncomfortable times when I do not particularly care for or get along with them. Then I have to learn how to accommodate that discomfort and show up anyway. Every hour of every day. And how to clean up misunderstandings and disagreements without wanting to kill the other person. It is all about learning to navigate troubled relationships.
Yeah, not as fun as I would like life to be sometimes. Some people will not like me. That is the bottom line. And I need to allow that without hating back. The challenge for me is there. I get a lot of opportunity to live into this challenge and walk in spiritual principles during these times. It is truly a good bashing of my gigantic ego. Yay! Yeah, that was total sarcasm. But the lessons are real, and they are a constant reminder that I am still in process and never done with this. Today I can be aware and be grateful, even when I don’t do it as gracefully or graciously as I would like. The challenge is on!