June 9

HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 9: “We are aware that the order of God requires the exercise of humility, but not of servility of slaves; but a humility that can be associated with undoubted courage and unflinching integrity; at the same time there is no room for pride, self-sufficient pride, that rests solely upon its own capabilities, and refuses to look for the support and countenance of others.” ― John A. Widtsoe

This is a new quote for me…I really love it. I am one of the most self-sufficient people I know. A real “Manager” if you will. What I also know is that I have never been without a sponsor since I began this journey. Not all of them were great sponsors, but I have used them all as if they were.

When I meet someone I think I can work with and need to move on, I do. Several of my sponsors have died through the course of the years, and one went out. She is now back in recovery and we are friends. Interestingly enough, she was one of the best sponsors I ever had. She taught me things I have used for a long time. I love her for that. And we went through some challenging experiences together.

I let go of one sponsor after only a few weeks. She just did not come from a strong spiritual place in the context of the 12 steps. And her way was to give advice and tell me what to do. That never works with me. I know and have always known, that if I am working these steps and applying these principles to the life I am living, I will have access to my own answers in my heart.

We all have our own answers. The only purpose of the steps is to teach us, again and again, to let go of Ego and move into the heart. That is where our spirit lives and that is where our answers lie. And I am so grateful for the dependence and sponsorship I have had in my life for these years. It is a beautiful thing that consistently teaches me to seek my answers from the source, not my head. And that my humility is always going to increase when I seek the help of those who show me where to get the answers. Thank you!