May 17

INTEGRITY MONTH: DAY 17: “The willingness to reach inside every part of yourself opens the door to total understanding. You place your entire identity on the line, not just an isolated part. This may sound daunting, but actually it’s the most natural way to approach any situation. When you hold some part of yourself in reserve you deny it exposure to life; you repress its energy and keep it from understanding what it needs to know.”― Deepak Chopra

I only know a couple of people with whom I share this dedication to complete and total healing. It is, as stated by Dr. Chopra, daunting.

Not many people will go to this length. I know that from the many years of doing this work and teaching it to others. They may take one step into that space, but pull back every time. This is from working with addicts in treatment, veterans in counseling and treatment, mentally challenged folks in several settings, and sponsoring hundreds of addicts in recovery as well.

Looking deeply into the void of ourselves, behind the walls and curtains we have constructed through Ego, and bringing these things about ourselves out into the light to examine and perhaps heal, is not something many will do. I know a couple, but they are dead now. Their work was deep, and they showed me that path. I am grateful.

The pain I have created for myself in this life is something I will work to heal for the entirety of this life. I no longer want to be hidden from myself. I am in love with what has occurred in my world as a result of this determination to heal and grow.

I am sad when I work with others who will not embrace their own journey. It is okay, because I know they will have to go there someday, but I would love to delve into this with them, because I have done it and know the places it has taken me. The freedom and beauty of where I get to live today. And the path I will be on for a lifetime. At least one…

When we skim the surface, the results are nil, according to the BB. Nil…not just some of the benefits, but nil. That means nothing. I know many who will peek into their souls, but never come back to help them heal.

My only conclusion after watching this happen so many, many times is that we are inherently lazy…in life, in recovery, in healing. We will do what we must to get the heat off and then end up back in the same shit a few weeks or months later, because we need to live in Ego for as long as it takes to let it all go. Some of that will happen in healing as well, but a great deal less repetition will take place. I love this journey and what I get. I hope you are feeling the same way today!