May 6

INTEGRITY MONTH: DAY 6: “I know that what you call ‘God’ really exists, but not in the form you think; God is primal cosmic energy, the love in your body, your integrity, and your perception of the nature in you and outside of you.”― Wilhelm Reich

I never read this quote before last week when I was gathering my quotes for this month. I have done this for nearly 7 years now and sometimes have challenges with finding new material. Even so, I love to do it and can write about the same quote in a variety of ways, because I have changed over the course of that time.

But this one is so good for me today! I have known for an awfully long time that there is no “heaven or hell” out there somewhere in the cosmos. That it is my perception that creates these in my everyday life. I have also known for a while that “God” is not a being separate from me, but that there is a power, a force, an energy that exists throughout the universe with which I am a part.

These concepts are not new, but they go right up against everything I was taught in my life. It has taken almost as long to unlearn these things as it did to learn them.

What is interesting to me is the resistance that I always had to these teachings; and yet how tough it is to accept what my heart knows is true.

That is strong testimony to the power of Ego. What I genuinely believe to be the “devil” we all do battle with. It is the seat of my addiction, so I know it is a devil to be highly suspicious of. I see the damage we have done socially, politically, and to the entire universe when Ego is running the show.

It explains, as does nothing else, my complete sense of being AT-ONE with everything when I am on the ocean, hiking in nature, or being with animals. I am home, more so than at any other time or place. I feel it when I work directly with my clients, most of the time. When we really connect, even if for just a moment, that is home for me as well. When I wake up during the night, which has been a constant in my life for a great many years, I can sit out under the stars and feel at home. I don’t need a lover, or a group of people around me, in fact they usually distract from my sense of completion and being home. But I know it when it happens.

New cars or homes or dresses or fun toys do not give this to me. They can be shiny and fun, but the feelings are not the same. Nothing is, except when my heart is open and full. That is what this thing is…I love that I know this today in ways that no one can take away from me…no matter what!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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