March 28

FAITH MONTH: DAY 28: “When you walk to the edge of all the light you have and take that first step into the darkness of the unknown, you must believe that one of two things will happen. There will be something solid for you to stand upon or you will be taught to fly.”― Patrick Overton

This is another quote that is an old standby for me. What is really funny for me at this time in my life is the idea that I ever had a battle with Step 3.

I find it extremely entertaining that I ever considered my life and will, as lived through Ego for so long, as something I had to actually give up. I mean, really? What possible benefit could I have believed I had going over what has happened since then, by taking this step, at least most of the time? I don’t know, but I remember the battle feeling real. Isn’t Ego amazing? And powerful, it seems. But not powerful enough to ever deliver on the promises it makes.

Anyway, I love Step 3. It is such a huge key in life being what life truly can be. The struggle for dominance between Ego and Spirit is real, but seems almost comical on this side of the bulk of the life I have lived since first beginning this thing. Not all my battles with Ego are over, trust me; far from it. But I can see the humor in the ones that have been waged and lost…poor Ego…such a BAD loser!

I don’t know about wings, but it seems like there is a giant trampoline or escape hatch at the edge of every cliff I believed I was jumping off.

I continue to believe that I am truly God’s favorite. The things that come to me and the ways that they come are amazing and wonderful! It is all a gift and I never need to doubt, but I know I sometimes will. It is great when we get these lessons collectively, as we are today.

It is an interesting time and a new event in the lives of all of us. No matter what we do or how we embrace the experience, and no matter what we believe around it, we are going to emerge with a whole new sense of wonder and (hopefully!) gratitude for things we never even thought of before…toilet paper…really? So many unusual and wonderful moments. I truly hope we can all focus on that and let the rest just be a story others need to tell. We choose, every day, what to focus on and what forms of perspective we take on life. I choose wonder and awe and joy and gratitude. No matter what, it is all I want to have in my life. And so it is.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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