February 1

HOPE MONTH: DAY 1: “But hoping,” he said, “is how the impossible can be possible after all.”― Marissa Meyer

I love Step 2! In the 1980s, there was a bumper sticker that read: “We came…we came to…we came to believe.” Isn’t that lovely?

It takes a really, really long time for addicts like me to believe. I came here…not even of my own volition, but because there was a moment in time where there was space in my life for an intervention of a very unusual type. Thank you Universe!

Then I came to…probably around 60 days into this, it occurred to me that I WAS clean and sober…very strange, but maybe, just maybe it could keep on. And I began to work this stuff in earnest. It was very powerful to think it could be possible…even after I left the facility where I was learning all of this.

Around 3 years into this, I began to believe, really believe. Prior to that, I was just doing time. I had come to “agree” that I maybe, might, possibly be restored to sanity. Maybe. I could see it was in the works for so many of my fellows, but not sure at all about me. I began, in tiny little increments to begin to believe.

That is what hope means to me. That there was a tiny spark lit up in my heart that I had never quite successfully managed to stifle, no matter how bad life got around drugs and alcohol. Today it is a rather large flame.

Why? Because, in the intervening years around here, I have had personal miracles in numbers too great to recall all at once. So many! And they have given me empirical PROOF that no matter what, I am going to be not just okay, but flourish! Isn’t that great? I think so! Cannot believe it some days, but I truly am open and allowing all the miracles to come into my life that want to.

This is the impossible fact for me. That there is NOTHING in the Universe that cannot be done with a tiny handful of hope…just a tiny spark. So, I will continue to tell everyone I speak about this with that I have pockets full of  hope for them and for everyone who is even a teeny-tiny bit thinking about having a miracle in their life. It can and does happen all the time…I know, ‘cuz it has been my life for a long, long time now…yay!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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