January 29

ACCDEPTANCE MONTH: DAY 29: “If you are irritated by every rub, how will your mirror be polished??”― Rumi

This quote reminded me of every irritation and complaint I ever had, before and during my recovery…in my life overall.

Yikes! There were people I hated who were such generous benefactors…if I had known…so many times, so many things, and in so many ways!

And I was irritated by them all. Interesting how life unfolds and how we view it so differently down the road. Age brings wisdom, gleaned from experiences I truly hated having, for the most part. I did not know so many things that are benefits, blessings and gifts that I did NOT foresee in the times when they were happening.

Today I am a lot more patient and loving about life and its daily irritations. They do not get to me nearly the way they once did. Isn’t that true for most of us? We have learned better by seeing the continuity of the gifts and blessings. They did not come wrapped in pretty tissue with beautiful bows and ribbons. Most of them felt like shit and stunk like shit at the time.

We boo-hooed these events, and today we celebrate them. That is my experience. That is my story…all of it. Every asshole I ever met gave me so much more than the kind angels. SO MUCH MORE.

I am only as strong as the events where I needed more muscle than I ever thought I could acquire. It came from those times, on those days, during those weeks. And from those assholes. Damn them! Bless them! It is all the same thing.

There are a lot of people who are not getting this message, who do not have yet this gift. They still stomp and storm at every event, like they are being beaten up by life. And they are. They continue to resist the changes and openings life presents. They are angry and bitter and full of fear. And they will continue to be this way until their tipping point comes and the whining has to be over. It happens to us all, maybe this lifetime, maybe in 10 or 20 or 2. I don’t get to say. I am grateful as hell that I no longer hate having my mirror polished. I am pretty shiny today. How about you?

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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