January 21

ACCEPTANCE MONTH: DAY 21: “Accept the universe

As the gods gave it to you.

If the gods wanted to give you something else

They’d have done it.

If there are other matters and other worlds

There are.”― Alberto Caeiro

This quote gives me a feeling of sadness. I am a very curious person. I want to explore everything, sometimes in great detail. So, when I read this, I see that my curiosity is really just Ego. That makes me sad.

I can sit with new people and interview them for hours. I love learning new people. More Ego. So sad!

I think of this curiosity as the thing that compels babies to learn to crawl, which is the onset of the terrible twos when children explore their world and poke their fingers into everything and all the exploration it brings.

So, I guess that, too, is a development stage of the Ego. Of course it is! We learn to individuate ourselves from our world and others around us. While it is developmental, all development in human terms is about Ego.

So sad. I want there to be some sense of healthy exploration that does not feed the Beast. But I suppose we are all here to develop as humans first and THEN as spirit. So, we have to unlearn a great deal of stuff to get to that place. I am still unlearning, darn it.

I doubt this will quench my curiosity for life. I am so interested in how things grow and the amazing treasures I find on the ocean, in the woods, etc. And people, please! I will always find them immensely interesting. Perhaps my analyzing them is not the best way to connect, but I find it compelling. I cannot imagine that we will lose our interest in the stars and the Universe and other worlds, but I do suppose that once again, it is none of my business. Hhhhmmmm.