ACCEPTANCE MONTH: DAY 15: “I knew then that this is how God loves us all and receives us all, and that there is no such thing in this universe as hell, except maybe in our own terrified minds. Because if even one broken and limited human being could experience even one such episode of absolute forgiveness and acceptance of her own self, then imagine—just imagine!—what God, in all His eternal compassion, can forgive and accept.”― Elizabeth Gilbert
I remember reading this in one of her books and immediately felt such connection with this passage! I am in this space almost every day. I feel so loved and adored by the Universal Power. On the very worst day I have ever known, I was given the Grace of this recovery.
I was at the apex of my terrible behavior and the absolutely worst person I had ever been or will be. And what happened? I got this gift. This incredible Grace and unbelievable opportunity to turn it all into a new story…a new way of life that has blessed and showered me with love and joy.
I did not know it then, but this was the feeling I had. I remember being very new in recovery and looking at the incredible array of stars in the sky…I lived in the desert then…big starry nights in those days. All of the sudden, I said out loud, “I LOVE the way the sky looks…thank you so much for giving me new eyes.” It was way before I had even heard about “A New Pair of Glasses.”
I knew I was looking through a new lens, and thanking the Power for the way the stars were arranged in the sky! Kind of like admiring the handiwork of decorating the Universe, like a home or something. “Love what you did with that idea, Dude!”
A huge moment of awakening for me…paying attention to something outside myself and feeling an immense connection to it all. It was so big for me.
And I did feel connected…kind of plugged in. It has never left me, except when I crawl back into my head and some BS story Ego cooks up. This happens so much less often today. What a gift! And I understand so much what Ms. Gilbert feels in this quote. Just imagine!