January 13

ACCEPTANCE MONTH: DAY 13: “The experience of mystery comes not from expecting it but through yielding all your programs, because your programs are based on fear and desire. Drop them and the radiance comes.”― Joseph Campbell

Another hero whose writing inspires and lifts me up over the years. I remember wanting SO much to believe and feel this when I first read it. Today I do…I get it!

Wow! Some days I am afraid of my life…what is next? Seldom…but it happens. Other days I am so excited and want to jump up and down because I get to be me…most often. I have learned to let go of my own agendas, ideas, programs and fears or desires. They come up, and I can let them go. A few of them in this past year have taught me so well. And one or two were more challenging to move through because I just did not understand. On this side of them, I am so grateful for not burning things down when I am confused by them.

When I am not too terribly attached to a moment, it seems to last so much longer and more beautifully. When I cling  to it, it eludes me, and I am left grasping at emptiness. I really want to just accept it all, and let it flow. Better every day, but there is always more to know and places to grow.

The perfect teachers continue to show up. I think I know which lessons I am ready for. Well, Universe just laughs and sends what is next. I can see the patterns of growth that make WAY more sense than what I want. Big surprise, no?

I love the simplicity of my life today. I do simple things with so much joy sometimes I am blown away. I make a salad and it is so pretty I want to cry…because I pick the lettuce from my little garden and see all the birds and hear the ocean…the lettuce becomes magical and I know it will feed my body the way the growing of it feeds my soul. How amazing is that?

Filling bird feeders becomes a rite for my day…they are all eating in my yard now that weather is cooler. I love them. Especially the jays who like to yell for more peanuts no matter how many I give them. Their rowdy voices fill my heart. Sassy and funny, entertainers. A hawk and his mate are nesting and hunt every day. I hope they come back every year…they are magnificent. The eagle and the owls are not around so much right now. I miss them. But, oh my! The egrets are here in droves! They are everywhere I go. So beautiful! And the Canadian geese and the Great blue herons are out in the Bay…what a gift for my soul. This all goes into my salad…how can it not be beautiful? And the best part of it all is that I don’t plan any of this…life is beautiful when I stay aware and awake to all that is happening…no control, no drama, no setting the stage…just showing up and allowing and accepting it all as a gift. Thanks dude!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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