DISCIPLINE MONTH: DAY 24: “We must do our work for its own sake, not for fortune or attention or applause.”― Steven Pressfield
This is the crux of my recovery. I don’t have many peers or others who work the way I do in this thing. I am self-motivated from within to continue to search high and low for the things that block me from the amazing spiritual connection I get from this process.
Most people are satisfied with so little in this thing. I have seen that. I guess I am truly an addict, because, since the day I got here, all I want is MORE!
So, I do more to get more. It is a self-fulfilling situation. Like any good that is done in the world, the more you put into it, the more that comes from it. I love that.
Whatever compels or impels us to move forward is the key. If it is material, you will sell yourself short every time. No spiritual tradition is going to applaud your bank balance. Nor is society going to applaud your spiritual work. That is okay. It is for the heart of you that you must do this work. For the soul of you that you must strive to gain connection with Divine Power.
I cannot imagine what it feels like to have all physical needs met and die inside from a lack of connection with Spirit. But I do know how many people there are who are exactly in that position. There is no joy or happiness that lasts more than the few moments that they connect, then disconnect, then connect, then disconnect. It is fleeting and sad, I know.
That is not how this has worked for me. Even in the most fearful times, there was a spark of faith that kept me going to see just how things would work out. And there have been some terribly dark and scary times. Oh yeah!
But I have always been driven to discover the Will of that Power; and, for me, curiosity was often the way my Faith manifested itself. So, I do this work because I know it is in front of me. Every day, all the time. It has never been “completed,” so I know I am not done here yet. Some days I don’t need to do as much as other days. That all depends on my place in the Universe on that day. But, I do have a nice connection on even the darkest days.
I will never get fortune, attention or applause for this. Just an inside feeling of completion and connection and joy and happiness that most others just do not know. It never waivers or dissipates. It is like an eternal flame that keeps on going and I keep on putting by just enough fuel to keep it burning. I love that!