October 14

DISCIPLINE MONTH: DAY 14: “Football is like life – it requires perseverance, self-denial, hard work, sacrifice, dedication and respect for authority.”― Vince Lombardi

Daily discipline is hard for most addicts to maintain. They will start out with a lot of enthusiasm, keep up the momentum for a couple of days and quit before the end of 2 weeks.

This is anything that is begun. A lot of people I have worked with over the years are terribly guilty of this. They go like gangbusters for a minute and then quit completely in very short order.

There is no long-term commitment to much of anything. Even if they stay with something, they get resentful and bitter about it.

I used to tell this about myself and jobs. It was true. I am all gung-ho in the interview, can do whatever they ask me about, better than anyone else, and happy and dedicated and making promises all over the place to GET the job. Then, great guns for the first week or so. After 10-15 days, I am waning in enthusiasm, a great deal less cheerful about tasks, and may be late a day or two.

Then, it gets grim. I am amazed they consistently want me to be there, on time, with a good attitude, and want me to work too? Really?

I know this is an exaggeration, but not really, in many ways. This is what goes on inside me. A VERY short honeymoon period…very short. Same with a lot of my relationships. We are like this. It is that incredible ability to lose interest quickly in something once we know anything about it. We get jaded with familiarity. Over it…fast!

So, to consistently and continuously keep at it, day in and day out, to make and fulfill that commitment each day, is what growing up is all about. Do I love it every day? Probably not. I still have that ISM…and I am still subject to being disgruntled, ungrateful and a chronic malcontent. But I can catch it in a few minutes, instead of the hours of not too long ago, which was, at one time, days. And when this all began I was like that for weeks and months at a time. I did not know this was a lifestyle I had going on for so long. I came here to learn about that.

Today I strive to maintain a good and healthy, happy attitude. It is the goal I seek. And it takes that consistent, daily work. I do that work. I may hear the voice of grumpy me in the background sometimes, but I seldom let it run my day or my life. That is a wonderful thing. I consider myself successful, in just being happy and loving my life. YAY!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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