DISCIPLINE MONTH: DAY 11: “This is the other secret that real artists know, and wannabe writers don’t. When we sit down each day and do our work, power concentrates around us. The Muse takes note of our dedication. She approves. We have earned favor in her sight. When we sit down and work, we become like a magnetized rod that attracts iron filings. Ideas come. Insights accrete.”― S. Pressfield
This is something we see all the time in life. What we are focused on will grow. When I set any kind of intention to do something, especially a healing path, I am bombarded by the Universe with the things I need to heal.
This usually does not mean love and light, although it is. It comes as opportunities to stop behaviors and beliefs that are kicking my butt. When I set about healing resentments (Step 4), that intention brings every opportunity I need to recognize how many of them there are in my experience! Ugh! And it happens in every Step along the way, for me. I have seen this in my life over and over again. When I am writing about these things, I get focused on what I need to look at in myself. Because I have been very disciplined in some areas, I get to see where I need to let go of fear in other areas and stop whatever ideas I have been living with that keep me from being more relaxed around my disciplines.
We need to remember that what we need is ALWAYS provided, even when we pretend to not know what is happening. I love that particular form of denial myself. When I sit down to write these pieces, I seldom know what is going to come. I can always tell, when I read them a few days or weeks later, what kind of space I am in at that time. I do have a Muse that comes and sits with me. I am sometimes blown away by what comes out of my typing fingers. The cool thing is that I type faster than I can consciously think. (Betcha did not know we have some functions that work faster than the damned monkeys!)
I really like the line in this that says, “insights accrete.” Cool phrase! But other times I feel the judge and jury who show up on this page as well. It really is my process, so I get to sit with that and see what they are here to teach as well. A lot of insight comes like that for me here.
I just know that between my morning writing when I first wake up and my meditation practice each day, I come to this page as clean as I can get. Then there is more revealed as I write. Sometimes I am angry or hurt, others I am mostly happy.
I love this process, and the disciplines of those things have given me so much to learn and grow from and with. The truth is this, it IS an inside job. It takes a lot before I will go deeply into THAT place, but I have to eventually, because the pain of running from Kelly kicks my ass every time. What a great blessing all of this stuff is! And I love where I am led when I don’t try to drive the bus!