July 19

PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 19:

“Put up in a place

where it is easy to see

the cryptic admonishment

T.T.T

When you feel how depressingly

slowly you climb

it’s well to remember that

Things Take Time.” ― Piet Hein

I like this one…it is new for me this year. I used it today, exactly one year after I moved into the home I live in now. A year has given me space and time to settle and to get restless again already. Isn’t that crazy? Yeah, I am a restless one.

I have seen two things that tell me about this. One…a home for sale that is very close to my ideal. At a price I could qualify for on my own. Two…another home for rent that is a dream home for me. At a higher price than what I want to pay.

I will go after neither of these homes, because I am practicing sitting still today. Just today. I cannot tell myself more than that. I got here and had to do this thing “One day at a time.” I have to sit still that same way…”One day at a time.”

Not my easiest thing to do, especially when it comes to moving around. I love to move into a new home. It makes me so excited to decorate and move things around until I find the sweet spot for my things. I am pretty good at it and it makes me happy.

The other part is that I LOVE to design the outside space. I have created magnificent gardens in my current home, where it was a completely blank slate when I moved in. Both of the homes above are blank slates, just waiting for my gardening skills. Hahaha.

That is my challenge. To sit still with what I have created and let it be. I can always improve it in interesting ways, and I do. But the sitting still is the fun part…not as easy as it sounds.

I am a total home-body and love to live in the spaces I create. But every new space challenges me to be IN IT. Or so I tell myself.

It is a crazy thing I do not always understand about myself. But I do honor that I can accept it, even when I do not completely know why I am this way. More will be revealed, I suppose. Till then, I will sit still.