HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 28: “It is impossible to begin to learn that which one thinks one already knows.” ― Epictetus
It was such a task to learn to “not know” things around here at first. Now I love the not knowing. It is a gift that I did not want any part of for a bit. Now…oh yeah!
Probably the most commonly used phrase for all of us addicts is…”I know.” We are so confident about how much of this recovery information we already know. The comeback I have always used is…”Great! But recovery is NOT about what you KNOW, it is all about what you DO with what you know.”
Chances are good that many of us are far smarter than our sponsors or counselors. We tend to be very intelligent people, most of us are well-educated.
But, knowing how to do these things is not part of that education. We may have heard or read all of this before, been to a few meetings, or a combination of both. BUT, we are not savvy in how to NOT drink and work a spiritual program of recovery while doing THAT; or not doing that, as the case may be. It is a combined effort in these things that results in long-term, ongoing evolution of a recovery process. It does not happen on day 1 or day 20,000.
It happens in this moment, one moment at a time. There is nowhere to “arrive.” We do not get an advanced degree in humility or recovery. Every time any of us believes they have “landed,” it changes the dynamic, and there goes that one!
I want to always be mindful of how much there is still to learn. I am getting some really big life lessons right now and they are so good for me. I am being humbled by the sheer force of life continuing to be what it is: a constantly flowing river of change that allows me to reconsider who I am and how I play in this game.
Today I want all my answers to be spiritual in nature, which means I cannot possibly know until I know. Then I may be able to do things in a spiritual fashion that I am completely unaware of at this moment. It will all be revealed, but I do not get to know when or how. Truly humbling shit, isn’t it?