June 17

HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 17: “Suns are extinguished or become corrupted, planets perish and scatter across the wastes of the sky; other suns are kindled, new planets formed to make their revolutions or describe new orbits, and man, an infinitely minute part of a globe which itself is only an imperceptible point in the immense whole, believes that the universe is made for himself.” ― Baron d’Holbach

Hahaha…isn’t that great? We are so completely consumed with self that we believe these things. At least I can say for sure that I did. I was so absolutely sure my life was of such enormous importance that I was obsessed with everything that I did or said.

I can sometimes fall back into this horrible place. I am sad to say that. There is nothing that can put me in my place as much as being in Nature and being right-sized with my little world. If I spend too much time with me, alone, I am doomed to be crazy in no time. It is so important that I get out of self and put myself into something bigger than me, which is everything and anything.

I have, many times, been blown away by the incredible vastness of an ocean, time, space, the skies, so many things are greater than me.

Why then, do we focus so much on our puny little shit? I have a cold, or I have this. I don’t have that. I am sad about this; I am mad about that. So what? It will be gone by next week and life will go on. Even if I am no longer here, the Universe will go on.

I truly love the IDEA that I am here to serve God’s kids and make life more impactful for others. I do not always know how to do that, but I want to. I long to lose me to take care of you and you and you. That is a goal, a standard I want to continue living into.

It embarrasses me to remember how conceited and self-involved I can be. It is shallow and vain and ugly. Today I will work to become a better version of myself than I was yesterday. Kinder, softer, gentler and less interested in me than you…see ya!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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