FAITH MONTH: DAY 31: “Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls.” ― Joseph Campbell
I always believed, when I was using drugs and drinking, that the bliss I felt under the influence was what this was all about.
Of course it is not. The bliss I have in my life today comes from life. From being one-on-one, face-to-face with life. Sitting still with my doubt, my pain, my fear, my anger, my shame, my emotional response to whatever is going on. It IS bliss.
When I allow all things to pass through me, instead of running from them or running to cover them up, I am in a state of bliss.
We learn very early in this lifetime to run and allow whatever is going on in our heads to lead us along THAT path. Not good, and never productive. We are seldom able to stop and BE with ourselves, be with our pain. That is a tough one. Be with our doubt, another tough one! We don’t know how to sit with our fear, we let it impel us through life, trying to “fix” everything and everyone around us so we don’t have to sit with any form of discomfort. Sitting with all of these is bliss.
Running around, letting ego drive the car at 900 miles per hour, is what we learn to do here. Unlearning this is what recovery is all about.
Most of us believe that when the line in the BB speaks of “the Ego MUST be smashed,” we think of our pride. That is not what this is speaking to. Ego is the entirety of what we believe. Our entire belief system must be smashed. All of the teachings and beliefs we get here with need to GO! They are no good for us and are, in fact, killing us in terrible ways, while blaming life and God and everyone else for that.
Bliss is what lives inside us when we quiet the Ego and hear the small, quiet voice of the Universal Power and know that our hearts are leading us to our highest good. It doesn’t mean we are high or satisfied, but that we are in the quiet space where only the Universal Power rules the day.