March 27

FAITH MONTH: DAY 27: “Realize that if a door closed, it’s because what was behind it wasn’t meant for you.” ― Mandy Hale

We often want things that are not meant for us. I wanted to be a ballerina when I was a little girl. The brutality of dancing became clearer as I got older, but it seemed so beautiful and romantic. Little girl visions can cause trouble if I don’t recognize the reality behind my belief of what something IS. That is like Step 1. Acceptance.

Then there is the seeming “contrariness” that I am prone to; always have been. I really want most those things that I cannot have. I used to hear someone tell me something was “bad” for me. I instantly had to have or do THAT. NOW!

I am not sure, but it seems to me that addicts truly do tend to romanticize and idealize everything they know nothing about. Education would seem to be the best plan, but it is difficult to teach us when our minds are made up. This is a tough experience if you sponsor addicts, isn’t it?

We don’t let go of our old ideas without a fight. Sometimes it is best to just walk away. We NEED to be able to let go of teaching someone who says they are willing, but does not display the ability to learn. It seems we are pre-disposed to being stuck in our own shit far too much of our lives.

Me, I want to let it all go. The more I do, the better I feel. I hope that is always the case for me. I don’t need to be right. I need to let it all go.

I purposefully close doors that are not yielding to the way life ebbs and flows. While it may be brutal to watch what others are doing to themselves, we must know when to walk away. Faith is knowing that they have a journey that does not involve you and that their Universal Power will come, but it is not your job to teach them.

Whatever we are hanging on to will drown us at some point. Old ideas, dependencies on things that do not service the goals we have set, people, jobs, ways of being in the world. I think one of the hardest is the mentality of being a  victim of life. Poor me. Ugh!

Disgusting as it is to see in others, I find that there is more of this in the world than anything else. We all want to blame life on what we do and who we are. So much easier than just owning our shit and getting some kind of responsible action in place. Poor me…poor me.

One of the other dynamics of being God’s favorite kid is that I do not hold hostages for what happens to me. I don’t blame others or even God. I look for (and ALWAYS find) the reasons and purposes for what is going on. I am being blessed by every event…EVERY EVENT. And, I have REALLY learned that closed doors are best left for someone else to open. They don’t belong to me.

Paying the price for taking things that are not mine is a good way to learn to stop doing that crazy shit. It keeps me out of your business and your business and your business. Truth is, I have enough in front of me to fully require help from that Power I decided this morning to give it all up to.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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