March 22

FAITH MONTH: DAY 22: “A star falls from the sky and into your hands. Then it seeps through your veins and swims inside your blood and becomes every part of you. And then you have to put it back into the sky. And it’s the most painful thing you’ll ever have to do and that you’ve ever done. But what’s yours is yours. Whether it’s up in the sky or here in your hands. And one day, it’ll fall from the sky and hit you in the head real hard and that time, you won’t have to put it back in the sky again.” ― C. JoyBell C.

We get too attached, sometimes, to people, places and things. We get too attached, a lot of times, to ideas or concepts that we appreciate.

For me, this quote speaks to that attachment. We may believe we are going to die without our parents, our family, our friends or whomever we are attached to. That is not the case. I have buried all the people I ever cared deeply about. My father, my grandmother, my daughter, my husband. There were SO many friends and loves in there as well. And I cannot honestly talk about this without remembering some of the animals that were such big parts of my life as well.

Sponsors, sponsees, deeply significant relationships where we got intimately involved with one-another and then they passed away. Those stars are all in the sky.

I truly believe that they are with me still. In ways I cannot describe or speak of, they are here. I feel their energy sometimes so strongly it can wake me up. That has happened quite a few times in my life. My grandmother and my father are two who did that. Now my husband does it quite often. It is lovely, and still kind of freaks me out. But I have learned to sit still with things that happen to me, because my life is kind of weird anyway.

I love the idea that I may have incorporated some of their energy(s) into my existence. It feels that way when I feel them with me. I love it!

I learned about letting go a long time ago. I understand the transitory nature of all of life. I have lived that way for this entire lifetime. I may remain in touch with many people, but few have remained with me for any length of time. That might feel sad for those who do not understand the ebb and flow of energy. But I always have. And I am okay with that. It can feel lonely when I want a physical presence to be with me, but never when I look for the spirit of someone. They are here…and I am okay with that. It is like the Spirit I call the Universal Power. I feel it all the time, more every day. It hit me in the head one morning a few years back, and has not gone away since that day. I love this stuff!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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