March 12

FAITH MONTH:  DAY 12: “Believe in a love that is being stored up for you like an inheritance, and have faith that in this love there is a strength and a blessing so large that you can travel as far as you wish without having to step outside it.” ― Rainer Maria Rilke

I like this idea so much. I really love to read this statement and use it more than once a year for these writings.

Only a couple of other pieces feed my spirit like this. We all long for love and a sense of belonging. Yet we are kept separate and apart through the Ego-Screaming Purple Monkeys (SPM.)

Our hearts know love, they seek it all the time. SPM tells a story about how that should look. It tells us that it is something we don’t have, and it should come bearing gifts and things we do not know how to get any other way. NONE of that is true. Not about love.

It may be true about sex or marriage, but not about love. Love is our nature, our creative power and our constant companion when we learn to access that instead of Ego.

Heart versus mind again. We get to examine ALL of our beliefs in this recovery thing. We get to look at whether or not our ideas are driven by television commercials or the reality of what our heart knows. Is Madison Avenue telling us that the ONLY way we are loved is when we are being wined and dined by a romantic partner or when the Power of this Universe is filling our lives with joy and love and beauty? It is an important conversation we MUST have with ourselves.

Is life REALLY supposed to look like a Hallmark commercial, or can it be that we can give to ourselves, from the infinite supply in our hearts, the kind of love we are truly longing for? I think we can learn this, but it takes work. Once again, the REAL issue is not that we are loved or not. The real issue is that we are too lazy to do the work to gain access to this source.

SPM is lazy. When it is running the show, we are “too busy” to do the work. We want it to be fit into a schedule of running here and there, trying to satisfy that Screaming Monkey of insatiable demands. Too bad, it cannot happen.

We feel unloved because we don’t hold ourselves dear enough to allow it to happen. Whose fault is that? Then we rail against life because we feel unloved. ??? Interesting, isn’t it? Yeah, keep turning your will and your life over to the care of that shit. Where does it get you?

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

Leave a comment

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s