February 15

HOPE MONTH: DAY 15:

“There is a crack in everything.

That’s how the light gets in.” ― Leonard Cohen

I like the idea of life being full of cracks. I know we are. We can believe what we want to believe, but there is no one here who isn’t full of cracks. The Universe is full of cracks.

I love that! Because we all need to know that our deep fears of being found out are just ridiculous. The more and sooner we can begin to accept and laugh at our fear, the better we will live. The rigidity we have is so sad.

The masks we wear and the pretense we put on is also sad. We are walking around, working so hard to keep the bogey-man away from our lives and what we don’t even see is that WE are the bogey-man. He is alive in our egos and our pretenses, but nowhere else.

I love that the light can shine through our ego-defenses, right through our little make-believe worlds and show us who we really are. The pathetic cover-ups and pretensions we hold up are made of clear plastic and glass for those who can truly see.

I remember meeting my Medicine Teacher. He just laughed and laughed when I told him my stories. It was so freeing to have someone see right through this BS I clung to, even at around 10 years. It was so much fun to know that I was a ghost to him. Powerful teaching in not allowing the story to be bigger than it was, just so I felt like I had a seat at the table.

We ALL have a seat at the table. We just need to know that it is NEVER what we think it is. What we believe about life needs to be dropped so life can honestly inform us about what is REALLY going on. I love the conversations I have with people and how the cling like crazy to the stories and the masks. It is what we do.

And it is killing us, but we sure as hell ain’t letting go. The ongoing sagas, the drama, the stories. Yikes! It is what we have done for so long, and we don’t like the pain we are living in, but we can’t drop them. It is like watching the monkey who gets trapped in a cage because he won’t let go of the banana.

On and on. It is sad to be so human…and there are solutions out there, but the pain of holding on to the banana isn’t great enough YET… so cling we do.

Thank God for cracks. They show us the delusion and then we can see better and begin to let go…and begin to let go. I love that! I want light…I want freedom from the damn banana!

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Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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