February 9

HOPE MONTH: DAY 9: “You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I hope someday you’ll join us. And the world will live as one.” ― John Lennon

How many dreams have come true for you in this lifetime? I know that thousands and thousands of mine have. I had SO many dreams when I was a little girl. I can focus my attention on what I did not get or have OR I can focus my attention on how many beautiful dreams came to pass.

Life is like that. I am the one who broke my heart. I am the one whose addiction destroyed all hope of anything good and fine. I am the one who had all these dreams and waited for others to make them happen. I had some weird idea of what I was “owed” and how you would all make that happen. It was not ME, I was the victim, the chronic recipient of your bad juju.

Today, hope is what I fill my life and pockets with, wherever I go. I am so happy that I cannot believe it.

I manifest miracles all day long. It is wonderful!

And my focus is on THAT. I can shift to a negative way of seeing life at any time. But I get to see how it all unfolds into miraculous and wonderful ways…and one more time, I am “God’s favorite kid.”

Over and over. I AM a dreamer. I always have been. I just needed (really needed) to take credit for the way things were going in my life and become a responsible grown up. Oh! And to look at my attitude and why my life was so shitty. I kept pouring shit into life and being shitty. So, all I could get back was shit. Oh!

Today, I dream even bigger, because the little hopes and dreams are all here. I don’t really know if very many people will join me, I don’t see it like that. But I do know that it is possible, because I do it. And I doubt the world will ever live as one. It doesn’t work like that, nor is that an expectation of mine.

Mr. Lennon was a beautiful wordsmith, but he truly did not live his dreams. He was terribly ensconced in his own addictions. That kept him from a realistic realization of his words.

I want to realize my words, so I work diligently to follow them. And the work is not always my first go-to. But, I do get to see the results every day of NOT getting caught in my damned ego and shitty attitude. It is a work in progress, but I am amazed WAY before I am halfway through. I have such hope that I am not the only one….

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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