January 26

ACCEPTANCE MONTH: DAY 26: “I let it go. It’s like swimming against the current. It exhausts you. After a while, whoever you are, you just have to let go, and the river brings you home.” ― Joanne Harris

It seems that periodically, things begin to indicate a shift in my life. Sometimes these are small, subtle movements; other times they indicate a complete change in several areas at once. These are often seemingly unrelated, but then the patterns can be distinguished.

Lately there is a shift in the way some relationships are unfolding. That is not new. It appears that an ebb and flow exists in this realm. That has been my experience over many years.

So, it is very important that I learn to let go and move on. When there is a vacated space in my life, whether it is with work, home, friends, or whatever the space that opens up becomes. Into this space have come many different things.

It is important that I learn to allow the space. There have been relationships that I clung to long after they were feeding my spirit or the other person’s spirit. That can become abusive or just nasty. Then there are those that continue over many, many years. This is lovely. I have that kind of relationship with my sponsor. We have fostered a long-term relationship full of respect and honesty (deep and blunt honesty when I need it), and consistency.

I have learned to be consistent with people. I am always going to do my best to be who I say I am and act in accordance with that. Through deep changes in my life, there are people who can testify that I have been consistent with my responses to who I have been.

The river of this kind of energy in life always brings me home. I am always going to navigate, as best I can, the highest and most honorable path I know how to navigate. There are great teachers in my life today. I don’t like them all. Yet I continue to learn.

Sometimes I am shocked at the teachings. And I get to process through the feelings and beliefs I have around that. I love the process, especially when it is over. Haha. But allowing others to be who and what they decide to be is the lesson, always. And remaining true to who I have become is another deep lesson. I can only go into that space. It is bigger all the time.

A couple of spiritual teachers I follow teach this lesson; that time and wisdom, which I hope to gain as I go down this road, are going to become more and more a place of deep alone-ness. This is nothing like loneliness, but alone-ness gives me wisdom. I can only learn from the things I have time to sit with. This is going to be an eternal truth that I must come to over and over.

The space will be for me to live in, the river brings me home to the relationship with that Power, which is a one-on-one thing and deepens the more time I spend in silence and space, alone. It is good.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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