January 11

ACCEPTANCE MONTH: DAY 11: “To come to know that nothing is good, nothing is bad, is a turning point; it is a conversion. You start looking in; the outside reality loses meaning. The social reality is a fiction, a beautiful drama; you can participate in it, but then you don’t take it seriously. It is just a role to be played; play it as beautifully, as efficiently, as possible. But don’t take it seriously, it has nothing of the ultimate in it.” ― Osho

I like this  quote. It speaks to me this morning. I think of all the running around and posturing and posing we do, and I feel weary. As I age, I want less and less of the drama and the “scene.” I live simply and am a solo act more often than not.

I have stepped away from the world in so many ways. There are some things I still enjoy, but I care less and less of the social reality as spoken about in this piece.

And I have suspended my ideas of right and wrong, good or bad, and all the dynamics that occupy most people’s every waking moment. I love to talk with friends, either on the phone or in person; most of the time we speak of spiritual truths or things we enjoy doing, nothing about money or any of that. I love my friends. They are far fewer in number than I once imagined I would have around me at this time in my life. But I treasure the ones who are authentic and with whom I share love of things such as the ocean and nature and the kinds of service work I love to do.

I find I am less tolerant of those who are more superficial or phony or self-involved to the extent that I do not have anything in common with them any longer. Life is simple and good. I read a lot about death and dying and do what I can to be with those who are having these experiences, because I am so comfortable with these concepts. I view them very differently and am quite comfortable with the end game being one that I am truly ready to embrace.

There is not a big “bucket list” in my life today. Little is wanted, less than I ever thought possible. I enjoy my garden and cooking good food each day, reading and learning and playing with my cat. There is a lot less traveling from here to there, and a lot more walking than driving. When I have to travel, I enjoy seeing the world around me, but seldom feel the need to go out and be “in” it. I like to hike along the beach or in the forests around me. Exploring a new trail is nice.

I have even lost the interest I have always had in shoes and things that are shiny and new. Once in a while I will shop with a friend and find a “pretty,” but am not as inclined to do that as I have been in the past. This is such an interesting space to be in.

Today I have several projects I can participate in, or not. We shall see how it all unfolds. I am quiet and at peace with nothing or everything. I love this kind of deep peace and acceptance…for today. I hope it lasts, but I won’t be disturbed if it doesn’t, since I know nothing really does, anyway. Lovely and blissful in this moment. How about you?

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Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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