October 31

DISCIPLINE MONTH: DAY 31: “Be disciplined and effective in your relationship with God” ― Sunday Adelaja

I don’t really know what this quote is meant to convey. It gives me that sense of Catholicism I got when I was a child. The discipline then was to go to church every day, tithe, kneel, genuflect, pray before every meal, light candles, fast on Fridays and during Lent, participate in high holy days, and so on. A great deal of discipline and time.

I am not that person any more. I am disciplined in practicing the spiritual principles in 12-step recovery, along with the dedication of my life to some kinds of service and sponsorship. I am disciplined in calling my sponsor on certain days and times, for over 32 years now.

I am disciplined in working steps daily in my life and looking at my side of the street, along with believing that my life is the best possible place for me to hang out, no matter what.

More than this being the discipline of my relationship with God, it is all about my relationship with ME, and I believe that my deepest heart space is where that Power is that most folks call God.

I cannot be spiritual unless I know deeply who I am and accept and love what I find there. It is never about what you feel about me, but what I feel about me.

I am not going to live to make you happy. I am going to live into that higher place in my heart that tells me who I am and how to live to be okay in this world. It is not a selfish thing, because I give more than anyone I know. Of myself, of my time, of my heart, of my love, and even of my money and other resources.

That is what I learned here. I heard a lot about it when I was a Catholic school girl, but I never really saw it like I have since I have been around here. Some of the teachers I have encountered have been amazing. They have been selfish and generous, self-centered or compassionate, self-obsessed or kind to everyone they met. All of the above and then some.

Teachers show us where we are. When I need to be more generous, I am taught that by the people around me. In so many ways! When I need to withdraw from the world for a bit, I am shown. By now, I usually know from within. When I ignore what I know, I get shown. Like all of us, I am gifted with all the answers I will ever need inside me. This is the generosity of the Universe to which I am a tiny part.

When I write about abundance, I am mindful of the abundant beauty that surrounds me at all times in this world. Beautiful people, beautiful animals, beautiful trees and flowers and deserts and forests and tropical islands and rocks. All of it is amazing! And then, just to show off, there are stars and galaxies and oceans and lakes and rivers and canyons and mountains…wow! What a great place we live within. That is my discipline.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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