August 27

COURAGE MONTH: DAY 27: “Great occasions do not make heroes or cowards; they simply unveil them to the eyes of men. Silently and perceptibly, as we wake or sleep, we grow strong or weak; and last some crisis shows what we have become. ” ― Brooke Foss Westcott

We grow, a tiny bit each day, when we begin this journey. The ME that others see today began so long ago; almost unrecognizably, to be who I am now.

Every time we walk through one uncomfortable situation and get to the other side, we are building up to where we will eventually become spiritually fit and ready for life. This is all a process. None of us could do what we do today when we began. Life gives us a stepping stone kind of process to gain confidence and trust in ourselves and the world around us, one bit at a time.

We get to Step 12 by working Step 1, then Step 2, and so on. This is how it all happens. Then we find a new place for working Step 1 and so on again. And again, and again. I have become increasingly more aware of my powerless over life with each passing day.

It has always been there, but I get to see it more all the time. By this time next year, I will have to relinquish even more of my seeming power. It is a mental and emotional construct anyway. I never had any power to begin with. Life is all about life, not Kelly. Really??? Hhhmmm…not sure I like that, but I sure know it is true.

This is a great quote to show the process for what it is. We are busy growing spiritual muscles, just like the process of growing physical muscles. It is a step-by-step way of life.  We grow as we work these principles and steps…a tiny bit at a time.

No muscle-bound person ever got that way overnight. Neither do we. We go to whatever spiritual gym we can, and we get to see how we build on yesterday’s work and the work done over the years. Not all of us are doing this. And we can see that too! We grow in layers that go deeper into our psyches with each step we work and every time we come back to them. Step 4 shows the growth every time. If I keep having the same shit on my inventories, I know I am not moving through the things I need to let go of. I am probably still working on controlling and manipulating others to get some sense of satisfaction from life. That is how I know where the work is I need to do next.

I love this stuff. It is powerful and wears away my personality conflicts just like the dripping of water wore down a mountain to create the Grand Canyon. Both processes are slow, but WOW what a miracle!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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