July 18

PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 18: “In my impatience I become convinced that this desire of mine should have been fulfilled yesterday, when it belongs to a tomorrow that yesterday would have killed had I had my way.” ― Craig D. Lounsbrough

Oh! This one kicked me in the head! I applied it to several situations going on in my life today. I am impatient with so much when moving!

And I thought about how awesome it is to know what is actually invested in every car trip I have taken up to my new home. Each time my friend James helped me load that amazing truck of his and been so wonderful with his help and ability to just throw it all in the truck (he is very mindful and careful but does not judge the things I want to move).

The investment I have in every rose bush that was dug up and moved and placed into a new space in my new yard. The hours of being with my new home and investing myself in cleaning and putting things away in new spaces and all of it. The love that goes into the packing of each box, the time I have spent with belongings that have history and stories and memories for me.

The new things I have bought with the space I will inhabit in mind. All the tired and aching muscles and the long drives up and back.

The preciousness of my new home belongs to these investments my soul has made in moving there. I am so glad for every moment. I was emotionally fried yesterday and did some restorative things with my friend. Then spent the evening doing a project I did not believe I would have time for prior to the move. I also talked to 4 or 5 friends while doing it. It was a love fest for me and my thirsty soul felt replenished and nurtured afterwards.

I slept well and woke up today with a good list of moving things to do and finalizing my plans for tomorrow when the pros show up and put all my things into a big truck for the final day of moving from this place. The real fun (for me!) is the putting away and arranging it all in the new space. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the decorating of a new home!

I think that may be why I move so much. I love the energy of the new space and the fitting in of all the beautiful things I have collected in this lifetime that are still with me. What feels odd is the fact that I only now possess 3 crates of books. For most of my life around here, there have been 20-30 crates of books. This is nice, because I have them all on my Kindle now and that is a good thing. So much less storage and space and weight of moving needed!

So, as I invest myself and the time spent waiting for this home, it becomes ever more precious to me. I understand the blow to the solar plexus I got when I read this quote again. How many children would be so well-loved if they were born without the process of waiting those months to see and hold them? I believe all of us treasure what we have worked for and earned, but even more so, what has taken a long time to come to pass. I know I think of this differently now. Peace!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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