July 8

PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 8: “You need not live your entire life now, be patient. If you work for things you want, you will find them. Change takes time and you can’t expect everything that you want to arrive immediately. Work hard, be patient.” ― Avina Celeste

As I step out of my door each day, the path is laid, one step at a time into the places I am meant to go. I have learned this after long and impatient waiting for life to go where I thought it should go. What is great is that nearly all the dreams I have ever dreamed have come to pass in that time, without me ever having to make them take place.

And way better than what I wanted. The beauty of my life is in the relationships with those who have been along for the ride. One of them is a sponsor who was part of my early life around here. She was an amazing example of the kind of life she dreamed of…husband, family, kids and grandkids, all of it! That was not the path I knew I was on, but I loved watching how her life unfolded for her and her dreams were brought into fruition.

And the next sponsor I had was around when I moved around the country a couple of times and went through some really tough stuff. Then, too, when I was moving back to the desert community and got into the relationship that turned into my first marriage. She was in awe of how I knew what I wanted and how it all unfolded into a whole new world for me and him. Such an incredible love story and journey!

Then, another sponsor who came into my life on the heels of my husband’s death and the changes that came from then till now, another 13 years. We have certainly been through some stuff in my life together.

It could not have unfolded any differently, although there are times when I want to push the envelope. The impatience and fear that drive many addicts is always going to be part of my thinking, but it doesn’t get to be a part of my life today. This is great news and such a rich blessing! I cannot tell you all how happy my life is right now, on the cusp of moving into another part of my life that I have dreamed about for the last 5 years! And it unfolded in so many interesting ways for me.

As I move into this next stage, I am still a product of all the previous stages. Where I am today is not a possibility without all the yesterdays and all the other stages. I am grateful to the witnesses, whether they are sponsors or friends, who walk beside me or just observe this amazing journey…I am in awe!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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