July 6

PATIENCE MONTH: DAY 6: “The immediate result of your infinite patience is peace” ― Wayne Dyer

YAY! I have been very impatient with the process of moving and spent several days just exhausting myself with packing and unpacking and cleaning and all.

Frustrated by the orchestration that this endeavor takes, to coordinate people who are doing jobs I need to have done…ugh! Along with trying to coordinate utility companies, landlords at two homes, cleaning up the messes of moving, my medical care and other agencies who are not transitioning smoothly, coordinating repairs and services at both locations; insurance for a new car and the DMV issues ensuing with that, so many details! I am very good at organizing all of this. But it does take a master planner a great deal of time to do so. And there were several people who could not give me days and times, when that can throw off a whole schedule that is very well planned. Ha! Here I am, managing again! And I am really, really good at managing. But it can be too stressful.

There is a great page in the BB that speaks to me and always has: “…is he not the victim of the delusion that he can wrest satisfaction and happiness from life if only he manages well?” UGH! So, I just decided to let all of this GO! Hooray!

I will do the things I can do and let everyone else off the hook. I will not be tied to them doing what I need to have done. I opened doors and looked at other options.

Like most of life, it really does not matter if they do these things or not. It will happen in the perfect time for what is supposed to BE.

I am quite happy that there is a lot of driving from one location to the other. This gives me time to sit with myself, practicing patience with traffic and drivers…hahaha…and to work through what seem to be impasses. I can hire other people if that is needed. I found a great person to help me with the move. I am blessed, because he is awesome and doesn’t need to prove anything to me. How kind he is!

And the rest will happen when it is supposed to happen. I let it all go, and it is already falling into place better than I could have done it. More is always revealed.

So, patience is the word for today. I am mindfully walking out into my day and letting people be who they need to be. I have so many wonderful options when I stop managing, even if I manage well. Hahaha!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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