HUMILITY MONTH: DAY 23: “My point is that humility should never be confused with mediocrity. Perfect holiness is the purpose for which we were created, so we can’t allow ourselves to be comfortable with the status quo. The minimum is not enough.” ― Augustine Wetta
I have always known that I can be totally average in any area, but must always strive for the spiritual with all that I have and all that I am. Granted, this can often border on egotism, but that is the battle, isn’t it?
When we are young, it is accepted that we are arrogant. Part of the experience of life is to be arrogant and cocky in youth, or we would never survive it. The problem for addicts is that we stay there. And we easily give up on everything if it isn’t perfect. This is an immaturity that rankles the world around us for a long time. Those of us who are lucky enough to come into this thing are blessed with 12 Steps that grow us the hell up.
I loved this quote when I first read it because it speaks of perfect holiness. I do not believe it is the reason for our creation, per se, but I do believe it is the state we came from and return to. We are here to develop a stronger sense of our connectivity and belonging to one-another in this journey. We have soul purposes for coming here and doing what we are doing. Not all of us are on the same path, obviously, but those of us who resonate with one another do so because of our common purposes and the recognition of that.
When we look around us at the world and its insanity, we can be assured that it is all perfectly as it should be, especially when we do not like or understand it. I only dislike those things I do not understand. Part of my personal path is to grow into understanding that I do not understand. That is all I need to remember. To keep away from judgment of whether something is right or wrong, good or bad. To know that I don’t know. To allow myself the experience of non-judgment, non-understanding. To learn to sit with that kind of ambivalence and not take sides.
This is pure humility in my book. Not-knowing, not jumping on any band wagons. Allowing life to unfold in its perfect ways; most especially when I do not like it. My judgments have been quite often wrong…I have made some HUGE judgments and found out later what was REALLY going on. I do not know, I do not know. I do what is in front of me the best that I can and make no decisions on what is good or bad, right or wrong. The challenge is on!