June 8


“Humility is the only soil in which the graces root; the lack of humility is the sufficient explanation of every defect and failure. Humility is not so much a grace or virtue along with others; it is the root of all, because it alone takes the right attitude before God, and allows Him as God to do all.” ― Andrew Murray

I work here. And the work is to become of maximum service to that Power of Creation and all his kids. I feel obligated to include the planet, Nature, all the trees and water and flowers and food growing, all the animals and oceans and birds…everything created by that Power.

So, anything I have is from that Creator. Everything that is good and fine in my life comes from that source as well. All that I do, whether you believe it is good or bad, right or wrong is on behalf of the Nature of myself as I allow it to unfold. There are things about me that I am not crazy about.

Spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally, there are great deficits I would eliminate if that were within my power. Humility is, for me, the recognition of those deficits and the understanding that I am not here to “work on” my character defects. That would only give them greater power and strength, like any other muscle I may “work on.”

This step tells me that I am “entirely ready to have God remove these defects of character.” A totally different world here! I am ready. I love letting go of who I am and stepping into who I am here to become. This is a process that I was not prepared for in those first years. It did not work fast enough! And I have been made, sometimes painfully, aware that my life has been much richer and more purposeful for those things that continued to exist long after I knew them to be unneeded parts of my personality, beliefs and behavior.

These are the path! These are the purpose! These are the teachings and the journey I am here to walk! I could not have operated without them to this point. So, they get taken when they no longer serve you and God! Oh shit! I get it! (That was a slap to the forehead there, folks!)

And then, a giant shift occurs, and I get to experience an old idea being removed…why does it feel like surgery without anesthetic???…and I am stunned and amazed that it is finally happening!!

I love this stuff. I love my life. I love living out loud (thank you Zola! I always have wanted to manifest that quote!) And this is where I get to do it. With you, my friends and fellow seekers. We are magnificent! We are incredible! We are blessed and beloved beyond words to say how much that is true! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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