May 13

INTEGRITY MONTH: DAY 13: “You don’t have to walk on water, it’s how you walk on land.” ― Jason Crabb

We all get to have heroes. I have had quite a few. As a little girl, they were people like Ghandi, MLK, and others. Big personalities, big presence in the world.

When I came around here, that shifted. I got to actually meet and sit in meetings with people who I admired. I did what I could to emulate their way of being in the world. It gave me a vision of who I could be and what I could strive for.

I still have some of those same heroes. Most of them have passed on from this life, but their teachings have inspired me and still do. Some I got to know firsthand and very well.

The greatest thing about all of these people is their humanity, their humility, and their humor. They were all capable of truly expressing their failures, their faults, their defects of character without showing them to the world all the time.

They never stopped growing and shifting into better versions of themselves. They never gossiped, complained, or talked badly about people. This was important to me, because it is a defect I dislike most about myself and in others. I am not entirely free of this, but I really got to see how much it hurts recently.

So, I am in process. Perhaps I will conquer this one and become a greater version of who I am now. I really hope to. It is ongoing. Progress is the goal here, not sainthood.

But I do know that those who consistently tell my story for me when I am not there are doing something I do not like. I do not respect, and I do not want to participate in.

We all continue to practice spiritual principles, or we practice character defects. I am being made more mindful every day of which choices I am making. I am happy to find new ways to grow and to become a more spiritual version of Kelly. That is what the journey is all about. I am happy I get to know that and to do that and to be that.

I hope it becomes my everyday expression of love to the world around me. Meanwhile, I walk on land in a sometimes chagrined and softer way because I have done things I am not happy about or proud with. I also say that the irony of this quote by Mr. Crabb is about walking on land…do you think he goes sideways? Sorry, had to ask…

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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