April 25

HONESTY MONTH: DAY 25: “Three things cannot be long hidden: the sun, the moon, and the truth.” – Buddha

I love that there is a threesome of interesting things…the sun, the moon, and the truth. The sun and the moon are two of the most powerful creations in the Universe.

Therefore, it makes me happy that the truth is bunched with them, because I feel the power that the truth brings to life.

Whatever dishonesty we may have participated in during our years of drinking and drugging, let us hope that we will be as willing as we can to allow truth to shine in all our lives, fully and without restraint. It is a bit scary sometimes to consider what would happen if it did.

I know I was quite afraid to allow truth to come out. There were so many things to keep hidden about myself! So, I began taking action right away to let go of some of those really ugly secrets. I began to unburden myself in (probably inappropriate) ways to practice the eventual discovery of all my secrets. Rather than wait for them to be resolved in inventory processes, I began to blurt out rather surprising and shocking revelations about myself in open meetings, in conversations with people who I knew would be taken aback at my disclosures, and in other Howard Stern kinds of ways.

I believe I did some of that for exactly that reason, shock value. To see if you folks around here who told me to get honest could really handle some of my more outrageous behaviors and stories. Did anyone else ever do this? Yes, I have had hundreds of clients who have done this with me.

It is how we test the waters to see if that “acceptance and love” you preach so well is real. I still don’t really know. You were mostly kind enough not to give me your opinions or judgments. What you did in secret is none of my business, thank God!

Today there are very few secrets about my life that I cannot share when the stories are appropriate. I have been somewhat socialized around here and can selectively share myself with people who are in need of the information, rather than just blurting it out in crazy attempts to see if you can handle it.

I am deeply grateful for this softening and socializing. It makes my truth more impactful and powerful for those who need to hear it. It is no longer hidden at all.

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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