April 13

HONESTY MONTH: DAY 13: “Keep a clear eye toward life’s end. Do not forget your purpose and destiny as God’s creature. What you are in his sight is what you are and nothing more. Remember that when you leave this earth, you can take nothing that you have received…but only what you have given; a full heart enriched by honest service, love, sacrifice, and courage.” ― Francis of Assisi

I love St. Francis…one of the few saints I resonate with, being a recovering Catholic and all. I love him because he was a total screw-up in his life and became a spiritual man after many years of going the wrong way. I resonate with that.

I loved him as a child, because he was always surrounded by animals…all kinds of animals. I was blessed to be raised with lots of animals. They were my spirit guides and healers when the world around me was confusing and harsh.

So, I really loved finding this quote. Because it is challenging, being in this world, to remember what we are here to do. I was taught to follow a specific set of rules, destined to make me believe I was never going to become a decent woman. I was taught that I was born in sin and doomed from the gate. I was ashamed for so many years of so many things about me.

I got here with all of that crap in my brain, and such terrible fear of being alive. It was horrible! Today I am free from that crap. And I can believe that I have a purpose and a destiny that included all of that, and whatever else I got here with. It was all part of the road I was on to this place. This amazing and beautiful place. I have a full heart, enriched by honest service, love, sacrifice and courage. I did not know this for so long!

I am grateful beyond measure that I know it today. I am home, in my heart and in my body. I am home and in perfect acceptance and grace. I am home, to the people and the world around me. I am home to the light that lived in my heart, no matter how afraid, ashamed, or horrible it all became. I am home to me, to the soul I longed to find, to the peace that resides in that heart. This is such amazing stuff! I cannot express the beauty and the joy I live with right now. It is overwhelming. I can carry all of this in my heart, no matter where I go or what that looks like. YAY!!

Published by: Kelly

I am a therapist and counselor with long-term recovery from addictions and personal trauma. My writing reflects these experiences and the road I have traveled in 12-Step recovery settings, along with the work I have done for over 30 years in the field. My love of dolphins includes the stories of them being healers in places all over the world. I long to offer every broken spirit and body the experience of a healing hug. May my words and stories inform, uplift and delight your spirit and soothe your weary heart.

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