FAITH MONTH: DAY 25: “Even the merest gesture is holy if it is filled with faith.” ― Franz Kafka
I remember in the early days around here that I would know there was something I had to do, but I was less than willing to do that.
I am no different today. My meditations each morning are usually around an intention for the person I most want to become. I am not there, not even close.
So, I set the intention and allow the Universe to move into action with all the opportunities I need to become better at navigating difficult passages in my life. This nearly always includes uncomfortable situations with others. I am not well-versed in relationships.
I have grown much better since I began. However, these are the challenges I face each and every day. How to get along without being phony or fawning. How to be kinder to those I dislike or who I see the mirror of who I am in.
So, I believe my faith in the Universal Power to bring those things into my days is based on the experience I have had since I got here. I set an intention to clean up my messes and behave differently; and I find that I am blessed with all I need to put that intention into tennis shoes and get its feet moving. This never ceases to happen.
All I need is to consider the possibility of future growth and there it is! The person I most need to grow my spiritual muscles and practice on or with.
The greatest teachers are always those I am uncomfortable with. They bring up old habits and old ways of being in the world. I want to spit on some of them so bad! (Recovering spitter, you know!) There is that old feeling in my gut and I get to move into a new and different way of behaving. One that is aligned with my practice here.
They keep coming! Just when I am thinking I can take a bow and deserve an award for my ability to shift into a new way of being with others, there is another one! And another! And another! Damn…this is taking so long…oh! yeah! My whole life…oh!
Most of the time, it is very important for me to practice that horrible idea proposed in the book, “restraint of pen and tongue.” Damn! It is in there, too. And regroup and get some clarity on what my REAL intention is.
What am I not giving in this relationship? I am always looking for what I am not getting. What am I not giving?
You know, this also applies to my relationship with that Power. What do I need to GIVE today that will increase the efficacy of my relationship with Power? Oh! I always have a long list of what I want to GET; but my experience is that I am far happier when I set my intentions on what I will GIVE. See you out there in the world today!